I know there will be days when you just don’t understand.to my future husband; what you need to know (i’m sorry, i love you)
I know there will be times when it hurts to love me.
I know you have never felt anything but love
from your parents, and that’s
I love your parents for that,
for loving you and raising you
to be the man that I love now.
But you have to know that I didn’t
always feel loved
and cherished as a child.
But I didn’t know any different for
a long time.
And I hated the likely possibility that
would grow up and have
little ones of my own
hated that they might possibly
feel about me how
I felt about my own mother. And
I hated myself for that.
Sometimes I still do.
You should know that I long to be a
mother one day,
especially if they’re
But I’d just as soon not ever have
children if there is a possibility
that I will make them feel
Please know that if we do
there will be days when I feel like I
have failed them, and you, and
There will be days when I will come
downstairs after tucking them into
with tears streaming down my face,
and I will need you to hold me,
and kiss my head,
and assure me that I am not the awful mother I think myself to be.
You need to know that I have all this
love building up inside of me,
splitting my seams,
and I couldn’t bear the thought of
them not feeling it.
Tonight I am crying because I love you. No, it’s not any of that unrequited love melancholy stuff that I get tired of hearing about simply because it does happen and it does hurt like hell.i will take care of me for you if you will take care of you for me (via birdsofafeatherpen)
I’m crying because I love you and I think you love me and I have never known anything more beautiful than the way you breathe my name and smile and you have a face of a joyous child, your dimples appearing.
I want you in nights like this, in the mornings we both hate. I want to hate the morning, but love waking up to you and still thank God for letting me see this morning because you’re here.
You are miles away and exhausted from taking care of others, but still think to tell me to take care of myself, get some rest. We say those words like other people say ‘I love you.’
‘You have an early morning’, ‘Get some rest’, ‘Please don’t let me keep you awake’. Others say ‘I love you’ in place of ‘I want you’, ‘I’m hungry’, ‘Don’t go’, and ‘I’m here’.
We say ‘I want you to go to bed now, you’re getting sick’, ‘eat’, ‘go rest’, and ‘take care’.
I don’t tell you that I have to be awake at six-thirty tomorrow morning because I don’t want to miss watching your habits that don’t change but make me want you so badly, I don’t want to miss a single piece of that story you think you are bad at telling.
And tomorrow morning at six-thirty, I will smile to myself. I may dislike mornings, but I surely love you.